Scars from a forgotten past

As you`re standing
out there in the cold
feeling the pain
of all the lies you told
Go crazy and insane
driven up against the wall
Have to face their questions
tell them what they want to hear
what they need to hear

Showing no fear
facing their lies
But hey,
what do you need little girl?
Got your happyface on,
but I know it`s just an act
have to face the fact
Hurting on the inside
bleeding on the outside
No one can see your scars
if you won`t let them

Remembering their faces,
still smelling their lust
The pain is still so fresh
Closing your eyes
trying to forget
But it only gets clearer
Cause that`s where the secrets and memories lyes
Screaming,
but there`s no sound
Beyond the point of no return
no rescue in sight
Pick up the broken pieces
of what was once me
Get my act together
cause this is my fate
Take it or leave it,
but try and forget
Make the most of it
Destiny`s not always kind or fair,
but after all
this is what you get for being naive..

Broken soul

Crying like a baby
lyin` on the floor
It`s so quiet here
now that you walked out the door
You`re gone
and all you left behind is this open scar
A wound that only time can heal
Not sure if my broken soul will let it though
Feels like I died inside
when you held me one last time
Told me everything `s gonna be alright
But you don`t know
the scars I already carry around
From another life
from another past

It`s hidden underneath my clothes
behind the mask of who you wanted me to be
who I wanted me to be
But deep inside my soul
inside where no one else can see
no one can reach
is a scared little girl
A memory of who I once were
Not sure if I even wanna go there myself
Not now
maybe tomorrow
When the pain is more distant
Locked in again
have to move on
Go outside,
face the world
Mask back on,
brave little girl
Happy face on
No one likes a sad face
or the real you..

En liten liste :)

Ok, jeg vet jeg sa at dette skulle bli en musikk/art blogg, men klarte ikke å dy meg når jeg kom over denne lille listen på bloggen til GM :) hehe..
svake lille menneske :)

Your boyish side:
[X] You love hoodies
[X] You love jeans
[ X] Dogs are better than cats
[X] You're gleeful
[X] You've played in the same team with guys
[X] Shopping is torture
[X ] You hate sad movies
[ ] You have an X-box
[X] You played with toy cars as a kid
[X] You've wanted to become a firefighter
[ ] You have a DS, PS2 or Sega
[ ] You've been obsessed with the Power Rangers
[X] You watch sports on TV (not all the time)
[X] You ask your dad for advice
[ ] You'd wanna own hundreds of baseball caps
[X] You like going to football (soccer) games
[ ] You have collected/collect baseball cards
[X] Baggy jeans are cool
[ ] Pajama-parties are weird
[X] Green, black, red, blue or silver is one of your favorite colors
[x] You love doing crazy stuff without any regards to what other people might think
[ X] Sporting is fun
[X] You talk with food in your mouth
[ ] You use boxers
Boy: 17


Your girlish side:
[X] You use lip gloss
[ ] You love shopping
[ ] You use eye-liner
[ ] You have the same shirt in multiple colors
[ ] You wear pink
[ You ask your mother for advice
[ ] You think cheerleading is a sport
[ ] You hate dressing in black
[ ] You like hanging around at malls
[ ] You like going to manicures/pedicures
[x] You like wearing jewellry
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your identity
[ ] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[x] You don't like Star Wars
[ You do cheerleading/gymming/dancing for recreation
[X] It takes you about an hour to shower, dress, apply make-up and choose accessories
[X] You laugh a lot
[X ] You own more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] You care about your appearance
[ ] You wear a dress whenever you can
[X] You use perfumes
[X] You use lingerie
[x] You played with dolls as a kid
[ ] You like putting make-up on others
[x] you like taking pictures of yourself when bored
Girl: 10

Haha..da var det vel bevist en gang for alle. Alle de som opp igjennom årene har sagt at jeg har flere mannlige sider enn feminine har altså fått rett :)
Jaja, det kunne vel vært verre :)

Scared Little Girl

Fallin`...dreamin`..
trying to escape
These nightmares keeps haunting me,
can`t seem to get away
Always tumblin` around,
like a blind person,
trying to find my way

Can no longer see the truth,
You can only outrun your past for so long
Oh, memories..please be gone
Closin` my eyes,
but only gets clearer
Tryin` to sleep,
but keeps gettin` nearer
Closer to the edge
Trippin`...slippin`...

Memories of what used to be
Scared little girl,
wantin` to run away
Too ashamed...too proud
Don`t have the guts,
so escapin` to dreamland,
where everything`s good
Puffin` on a cloud,
but won`t last for long
Don`t care anymore,
let them play and have their way
As long as I get my sweet escape,
doesn`t matter what they do
Floatin` away...
on the river of hopes and dreams.
Knowing it`s just an illusion,
but it`s the only thing that feels real.
Forgettin` the world outside,
if only for a while.
It`s the only love I`ve known,
and I`m not scared anymore..

Velkommen!

Første innlegg på min nye blogg!:)
Håper at jeg etter hvert kan fylle siden med masse yummy musikk/art stoff og at jeg kan komme i kontakt med andre som har en like brennende interesse for musikk som meg :)

Ta mer enn gjerne kontakt med meg dersom dere har tips om nye grupper/artister/sanger jeg bør høre eller for å gi meg ris og ros for siden! Så lenge kommentarene er konstruktive, blir jeg veldig glad om dere legger igjen en hilsen :)

Hmm...skal ikke skrive så veldig mye mer i første omgang, nå skal jeg gå litt i tenkeboksen og finne ut hva jeg vil legge ut her inne først :)

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